Monday, September 8, 2014

Clouds at Sunset







You must habit yourself to the dazzle of the light and of every moment of your life. 
~ Walt Whitman


When I found this quote, one that I had not read before and really liked, things were going well here. Then they took a turn for the worse, I suspect because my husband overdid it again. He is eating really well and does not take any food or drink he is not supposed to have. So I suspect doing too much and not resting enough. So the other day, things fell apart, he had another attack of ammonia on the brain, or hepatic encephalopathy, a terrible side effect of a failing liver that causes confusion and unrecognizable outbursts of angry and weird words, directed at me, since I'm the only one here. His liver is supposed to be good, nearly perfect for the coming three-month period, according to UCLA, but I still think he has to take good care and balance his activities and with rest. 

Today he was feeling so bad he just had to stay in bed. We both walked the dogs, then he ate and went back to bed, while I took some of the trash to the dump. I think he's feeling better now. 

This morning, I heard the pitter patter, not of little feet, but of rain drops on the tarp outside our window. Then a strong, heavy rain, followed; the kind that creates flash floods. But the rain didn't last long enough to do any harm, it just dazzled my moment. 

"Stay still my soul, and peace will find you." My quote, but who knows, I may still cry. And that's OK.







28 comments:

  1. Thinking of you. I know that your strength will carry you through but I also know how hard it is to care for a sick husband. Stop by and pour your heart out anytime. I'll listen!!

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  2. i'm sorry, inger. i know this is so difficult for you. and i'm sorry for your husband, too.

    these images are amazingly vivid and beautiful. thank you for sharing them.

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  3. Oh Inger, I wish I could give you a hug.

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  4. So sorry, Imger, that things were difficult for you and your husband. Having been a caretaker for my husband a few times, I understand what you are going through. Find some time to take care of yourself also.

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  5. So sorry, Inger, that things were difficult for you and your husband. Having been a caretaker for my husband a few times, I understand what you are going through. Find some time to take care of yourself also.

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  6. I'm so sorry that your hubby had a relapse. He's just not used to NOT working hard--it's a difficult adjustment for him to make. He's trying not to let his illness win. I hope he'll learn to rest--you both need it!!

    We love you both!!

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  7. Ingrid, I'm so sorry for this setback for your husband.
    I hope that he will fully recover. This must be so difficult for you but I know that you're strong and will carry on.

    Your sunset photography is gorgeous.

    My prayers are with you and your husband.
    Hugs,
    Julia

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  8. I'm sorry for you and your husband, Inger. I'm praying for strength for you and healing for him. Know that you are in my thoughts always.

    The cloud pictures are beautiful. Thanks for sharing those with us.

    Take care! ~Jeff

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  9. Sending hugs your way Inger. I know this is a difficult time for you. Thank you for taking the time to share these beautiful pictures.

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  10. Dear Inger, pain, disability, the knowledge that they cannot do anymore what was once so easy, and illness as well,too hard for a man to accept sometimes, your beautiful clouds show us nature's glory, and I hope and wish some of this rubs off onto your heart right now. Big hugs and care from way down here, Jean XXX

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  11. Yes, it's okay to cry. Releasing your emotions might help you feel better. I'm glad you turned to writing, too. I'm so sorry about the bad turn.

    Love,
    Janie

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  12. Hoping for better health for your house.

    Gorgeous clouds, absolutely wonderful!

    Hugs!

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  13. Hugs, Inger. Its hard to have harsh, hurtful words hurled at us -- even if we know it is the disease talking and not the man. And, yes, it is absolutely okay to cry.

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  14. Inger, I'm going through the same things with my hubs. Some days he's calm and some days he's agitated and grumpy and says mean things. They get frustrated with their confusion and the inability to do what they did before. I understand why they do it, but it does still hurt. You have my sympathy. You can email me anytime.

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  15. Hi Inger - so so difficult for you and I'd love to be there to give one big hug ... well always for more hugs and comfort as and when.

    It's always challenging for anyone who is naturally active to not be able to do things ... and DG says it well ..

    Love the clouds, then that heavy patter of rain .. perhaps it's a good thing it didn't flash flood ... but lovely to smell that earth ..

    Take care and with loads of thoughts for you all ... you both and the dogs ... Hilary

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  16. Oh, so sorry to hear this. Sending you thoughts of strength and love.

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  17. So sorry to read this. Is there any way you can get a carer in at least a few times a week so that someone else can share the pain and possibly those inexplicable outbursts too? Thinking of you and sending virtual ((hugs)) xxx

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  18. so sorry to hear this, and I pray again for his healing... wow, wow and triple wows on that sunset... God bless all four of you.

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  19. Your sky shots are gorgeous Inger.
    Hang in there sweet lady , your so strong for your husband.
    Be good to yourself too , we care.
    Sending a caring cyber hug,
    Willow

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  20. Oh my dear Inger, I am so sorry to read that things were difficult for you and for your husband... I do hope with all my heart that he will fully recover. Sending you both prayers, positive thoughts and Love.

    Gorgeous pictures of clouds at sunset, Inger. Love also the quotes.
    Many hugs!

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  21. I think that the first quote is imperative to be doing all the time - so when the rain does come - you can be still and listen to the God who you know is there because he mad all those dazzling things - do you know what I mean?

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  22. Beautiful clouds. I'm so sorry to hear about your husband. You're both in my prayers.

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  23. I am so sorry to hear of your husband's reactions to his illness. Even though we understand the harsh words stem from anger, frustration and pain, they still hurt.
    Hugs to you. May the beauty around you bring a bit of sunshine to your heart!

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  24. Do whatever it takes to stay strong and keep going. Keep looking up.

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  25. Praying this is just a brief set back and he will be back to doing well again soon. It is so hard, for a man in particular, to "take it easy", It just isn't in their nature. Hope this nudge will remind him that he must do just that for now.
    Be well also lady and I am happy you have been shown such beautiful skies to bolster you.

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  26. Oh I hope improvement come soon for your husband very sorry to hear this.

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  27. The two quotes say so much about your inner strength. You and your husband are walking as one, each holding up the other. God bless you both.

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  28. How difficult to be a once strong and vibrant individual and now feeling weak and vulnerable and confused. And you his partner suffer as well. I feel for you, Ingrid, and as I read this I wonder what the future holds for my husband and myself at this stage of life when anything can happen, the body breaking down with age. Seeing how you are taking joy in the small things and the beauty of life in the face of disappointment is such a great lesson.

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Thanks for leaving a comment.. ~~ Inger

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