The above picture didn't work as header photo, so I'm posting it and it's sister here, just to have them on record. I really like how they turned out ~ mountains wearing hats. They were taken with my phone, so maybe that's why they didn't work in the header.
I'm feeling much better than I did at the beginning of the year. As I said, I was dreading certain dates, none more so than January 22nd, which last year was the last good day Errol and I had together.
But I'm learning that fear has no place in our lives, not really. First thing that happened on January 22nd was a lovely email from my childhood friend in Sweden, Barbro. She's the shorter one in the picture above. We have been friends since 1946, 70 years now. Pretty amazing and I was so happy to hear from her.
Then my relatively new friend, Mary, invited me to come over and crochet with her as the crochet group was cancelled. This is one of Mary's dogs, Sparkle, and Mary's legs in the snow at Christmas.
This again is from Christmas and the stunning view from Mary's deck. Mary is a widow also, and we were able to share some serious things, as well as having a fun and creative afternoon.
My friend Carol sent this lovely yarn for Christmas, along with other things to encourage me in my crocheting adventures. It wasn't enough for a scarf, so Mary suggested a cowl. I finished it later and it's very warm and looks good too. All this to say that my worries about a specific date did just that, worried me. The day itself was just another day and turned out to be a lovely one.
As most of you know, last April was for me the cruelest month, since Errol passed away in April 2015. So I thought I would really challenge myself this year and signed up for the A to Z Challenge, where you post every weekday throughout the month, a letter for each day, A to Z. I think I can do it. I am calling it, "Me, Alone," borrowing the title from Stewart O'Nan's wonderful book about the life of another widow, "Emily, Alone." I would like to write about how I am finding my way in this new life of mine. And it will not be a sad story, I think it will be hopeful and happy at the end.
Other than that, I have been waiting all day for UPS to come and deliver my new insulin pump. It's now 7:30 in the evening. I just sent off an email to UPS tracking service, asking them to let me know what's going on. I need to drive down my hill and lock my gate and go to bed, I said. Not that that will make them come any sooner........
Friends are wonderful being and often know just what you need.ReplyDelete
I have not joined to A to Z but have considered...then I think, No, I could never do that. It might be loads of fun.
The A to Z is lots of fun, but time consuming. With all the rain we've had, I'm sure April will be a very busy month outdoors too.Delete
i think mary is a wonderful friend - and you for her. and i love sparkle, too. i like your fences today!ReplyDelete
I should join your fences soon. I have lots of fence pictures.Delete
I am looking forward to your A to Z. I haven't decided yet if I am going to write. Or what I will write about. I am glad that through the challenge I found good friends like you Inger!! Love the pictures. Those clouds on the mountains are simply beautiful!ReplyDelete
The view from your friend's deck is awesome. Mary sounds like a good friend.ReplyDelete
Good luck with the A to Z thingy. :)
enjoyed catching up with you my friend, bless you.ReplyDelete
Hi Inger - how wonderful Barbro remembered that wonderful date of 22nd January. Also lovely that Mary is around in Ca with you - and you'll share life together - and the dogs .. and the snow! What a brave thought to do the A-Z .. but it will occupy your mind, keep you engaged with us lot - and will, I am sure, provide us with some wonderful thoughts on life in general.ReplyDelete
Love the photos ... and the stormy sky in the header, particularly so ... but it's not the sort of storm one wants to see too often.
Take care and wonderful to have your comment and to see your post here .. cheers Hilary
UPS just ties my stuff in a plastic bag on my gate , at the foot of the mountain. Sometimes if his cell works, the driver will call to let me know it's there. Usually I just go down there when the tracking number says it's been delivered. Once it's on the gate in the bag, they consider it delivered. I told them not to even try to come up here. They can get up, but there's no way to turn their trucks around!ReplyDelete
An insulin pump costs thousands of dollars, it was $4K years ago, now I'm sure it's more, so a signature was required. The dude showed up at 8:35 pm with some excuse that something had gone wrong with the usual driver from Mojave. Oh, well, I got my pump and now I have to schedule a training session to learn how to operate it.Delete
Friends can get us through the hard times. It is good to hear that you have found someone who you can share your fears and difficult days.ReplyDelete
hope the fed x guy got there with your pump, that is a NEED for sure. love the cowl and the view from her deck. so glad your day went well ad was special for you..ReplyDelete
It's wonderful to have life long friends - people who know us so very well. : )ReplyDelete
Glad to hear you got through one of your bad days.
Inger, it's so nice seeing a post from you this morning. I'm so glad the dreaded date passed without holding you prisoner of sadness and that you spent the day with Mary crocheting a nice cowl. It's so nice of your childhood friend, Barbro to email you. Your outlook is looking good and you seem to adjust so well to your new situation of being alone.ReplyDelete
You seem to be getting stronger with the passing days. Soon, it will be Spring and new green shoots will appear after a hard winter.
New greens are already sprouting everywhere, thinking it's spring. They will be surprised this weekend when we may get snow at pass level, which is us, again.Delete
Real friends and cyber friends are wonderful....we just have to make this best of life and the older I get the more I appreciate the simple pleasures. Your view alone, would give such simple pleasure.ReplyDelete
so glad to see your blog - i tried a few times and it was different - i couldn't get in. Anyway love that u are crocheting - so far I haven't taken the time to sit down and get my sis to help - we are too busy out and about. Glad u are gearing up for that A to Z challenge - i may do that myself. take care.ReplyDelete
Friends are our anchors in this troubled sea we call life -- yet sometimes the sea is beautiful. Thanks for visiting and making my day by talking for a bit with me. :-)ReplyDelete
The photo you chose - Your Header photo - is absolutely beautiful. There is nothing more special then having the sun peek out after a cloudy day!ReplyDelete
Glad you got a new pump - it has to keep up with you and your new adventures :) Now that I know you have taken this crochet thing seriously lol I will be taking a little visit to a certain wool shop here in Montana...
And no picture of the kids this go around? Give Samson a kiss on the nose from me, and a good ear scratching to Faith! xoxo
It's good to hear you are getting out, Inger. I used to crochet quite a bit, but haven't now for over 20 years now. I liked it better than knitting. I also joined up for the A to Z, to give me something to blog about since I've only been sporadically blogging, when I can fit it in. I don't like to reveal my topic until the Challenge starts. Take care.ReplyDelete
Coming to visit you here is like a breath of fresh air. How I love your photos, old and new. And you have a way of sharing things such as... the simplest of sunsets, sunrises, ominous clouds or animal prints in the snow... provoking thought on beauty, peace and adventure. Your life is interesting and so filled with strength and grace and love. Thanks for sharing it with us, Inger. We love you!!ReplyDelete
Gracie says: Samson, I am getting old. My legs shake when I stand for too long and I often need three and four tries before I can make the jump from the floor to the bed. Will you still love me in my old age you young pup you? Lick, lick, and doggie hugs.
I am so glad you have Mary in your life. No one truly understands the loss of a life partner unless they have been through it. The rest of us can only imagine.ReplyDelete
Challenges are great for blogging. They keep your feet to the fire and make you think through a post. Have fun with it.
LOVE your new header & I'm SO glad the day worked out well for you!!ReplyDelete
First of all, I am glad you are feeling much better than you feel at the beginning of the year.ReplyDelete
You are an inspiratin to me, Inger!
I always love your photos of the mountains, the sky, clouds, vegetation and of course photos of adorables Samson and Faith.
Love so much the photo of you and your childhood friend in Sweden, Barbro. Both of you look so pretty! Just amazing that you both have been friends since 1946! It's very precious to have a friendship for 70 years now.
It is so good to have a friend, like Mary, that invited you to do crochet with her. I have no hability on crochect or tricot! Lol!
The view from Mary's deck is stunning and Sparkle looks beautiful!
So nice that Carol sent a lovely yarn for Christmas!
Sounds great to signed up for the A to Z Challenge. Love to read them!
And I think it is so good to write about how you are finding your new life!
Hope the insulin pump arrive soon!
Many hugs and much Love!
Ah! Your header photos is gorgeous too!ReplyDelete
What a big comment I did! LOL!
You may just have to reduce the images (or pixel size) Inger to get them to fit. I love that you crocheting...something I was thinking of revisiting myself!...:)JPReplyDelete
I'm so glad that the dates you were dreading were not as frightening when they actually arrived. I feel this post is more upbeat and it is full of hope. I'm looking forward to reading your A-Z but I don't think I'll be taking part this year.ReplyDelete
Glad things are moving along for you. Crocheting with friends sounds like fun to me. I do hope the insulin pump finally arrived. UPS can be aggravating at times. Be well, Inger!ReplyDelete
OH Inger I am typing with one hand:) sneaky ice:) but I wanted to send you HUGS lots of hugs. xoxoxox BReplyDelete
Love this post. It sounds as if you are moving forward with different approaches. Time spent with Mary, healing while crocheting, very tactile.ReplyDelete
Love to see your name, Inger.
Onward and upward, Inger. Funny you should mention and show the cowl you crochet, we are just starting two ourselves. Gotta LOVE winter!!ReplyDelete
Lovely shots of the mountains with the clouds. How nice to hear from a childhood friend and to spend time with a new friend, too.ReplyDelete
I'm glad your day turned out to be a good one:)ReplyDelete