Thank you, Mary, for sharing in your comments on my last post that it takes a long time to be able to focus. A friend here in the canyon told me it took her at least two years after the loss of her husband to feel more like herself again. No wonder I feel so frustrated and sort of lost.......
Yesterday, I started to repair the road that leads to my house (in the opposite direction from this picture). I had an idea that all the stuff the last mudslide brought down from the hills above would be light enough for me to lift and would pack well into the road. It was a mixture of manure, hay, sawdust and looked like it came out of a barn. That, with some gravel on top, I figured would work.
The idea was a good one and the stuff worked well, but I picked a bad morning. I noticed a haze, but didn't smell any smoke, so I continued to work for a while. Then I felt it in my lungs and knew it was smoke, probably from the fires around the Kings Canyon area of the Sierras. I stopped smoking in 1993; in 2012, there was a large fire close to our canyon. Not thinking much of it, I walked the dogs and spent time outside through the couple of weeks it took to put the fire out. It took my lungs these three years to become somewhat normal again.
This morning, the wind must have shifted because it was just gorgeous outside. I cut back some weeds, walked the dogs, climbed a couple of hills, and enjoyed the pretty yellow bushes in the fields below.
I just spent a lot of money fixing the Jeep. Thinking this was the end of fixing it, I drove home, happily, and a bit fast on this bumpy road, when the Death Wobble started up again. I wrote about this problem with some Jeep Wrangler models a couple of years ago. It was supposedly fixed last summer. I checked the records and learned it was 12,000 miles ago. So that's how long that repair lasted.
The Death Wobble makes the Jeep shake violently and you have to stop. Having to stop in the middle of the freeway with a big semi-truck behind you puts your life in jeopardy. It has happened to me a couple of times. From now on, I will not drive the Jeep on freeways with heavy traffic. That's all I have decided so far. I'm so disappointed. But I'm glad that it didn't happen in the spring when I had to drive those 107 miles to UCLA hospital several times a week. The Jeep will be fine for around here and later I will have it repaired again.
I wish I was able to post just one gorgeous picture per post and then write some wise and/or fun and entertaining words below. Some of you are so good at that. If I did, then I could post more often, I guess. I may just try. I'm a bit tired of my own ramblings.
Faith Says: I know how you do that, mommy.
Faith: You wanna hear?
Faith: Are you ready?
Me: Faith, you're taking up a lot of space already. Just get to the point, OK.
Me: Is that it?
Faith: No, this is what I would say on my post, if I ever got to post: Woof, woof, and:
Have a nice day, everyone!
Heh, heh, heh, tricked you mommy!
faith, you're a good blogger. :)ReplyDelete
inger, do be careful with your lungs - glad the jeep decided to do its death wobble now and not with you out on the interstate! you need a good, reliable vehicle so i'm guessing you have another you can use for longer commuting needs.
No my SUV was run into by an idiot and totaled back in 2010. For the few times I have to go to Bakersfield or somewhere else with heavy traffic, I will rent a car. Later I will have this fixed again. 12,000 miles will take many years for me to reach the way I drive now.Delete
So glad to see you're posting again--I thing it's therapeutic!!ReplyDelete
Beautiful pictures of your area. The smoke from fires can really affect the lungs. Hope your Jeep holds out until you can get it repaired. I love Faith's closing comments. Have a good week.ReplyDelete
I do hope the Jeep holds on for a while. Vehicles can be such a pain. I think Faith is making an excellent blogging companion.ReplyDelete
Hello Inger! I'm glad I didn't miss another enjoyable post! :-) I share your feelings about car problems, I put them right up there with bank and computer problems--But I'm glad you're safe, and hope it holds on for awhile! I'm glad you have Faith and Sampson to help you with blogging, what would we do without our pups? :-)!! --Take care!ReplyDelete
I tell you it can seem like there is on end sometimes... vehicle problems are just the worst aren't they... You should not worry about your blogger postings.. just enjoy your blog and post what you want when you want :O)... and woof woof back to Faith!!ReplyDelete
We are trying to avoid being out in the smoke -- keeping the windows closed, even at night. But the animals still need to be fed so we can't avoid it all together. It feels like prison, being stuck inside the house with the smoke still managing to seep in through the spaces created by old, poorly fitting windows. But, we aren't in the path of the fire so I will be thankful. I love how you blog -- the stories you tell about your life in the canyon, full of honesty. I would miss those posts if you switched to a photo and a few inspirational words.ReplyDelete
Your road looks great, and do take time to grieve and recover, years rather than months. Smoke, here in NZ when there have been huge bush fires in Australia, a westerly wind will blow the haze and smoke all the way over the ocean. Some 1381 miles or 2223 kms .Faith knows a good thing, hang onto her, it was so good to see your comments for me again.I treasure them so much Hugs XXXReplyDelete
I think you are working hard and doing a great job. I know how hard it is my friend and I keep you in my prayers. Sweet hugs, DianeReplyDelete
Faith, you're my kind of blogger!ReplyDelete
Sorry about your wheels. You do need it looked after - what if you had an emergency? I don't drive anymore, but still like to have some kind of wheels around...ReplyDelete
I hope the smoke stays out of your wind!
Faith is getting to be a beautiful lady now! Quite grown up!
I can drive it anywhere, except the really busy freeways. Just as long as I can stop if it happens. Chrysler should have done a recall years ago, but no such luck. I would never buy a car from them again.Delete
Woof, Woof! You have improved my day immensely -ReplyDelete
I am sending you love & love,
just wondering what year your jeep is? We have one and I have felt shaking before on the highway. It's so beautiful up there where u live.ReplyDelete
It is so beautiful where you live. But I have a phobia about snakes so the desert and I would have to tread carefully around each other!! Yes, watch those lungs. And it is terrible about the Death Wobble but great that it did not happen when you were traveling so often on the interstate. It was 400 miles and 12 hours for me on the roads today! Whew!!!ReplyDelete
What a beautiful place to live!ReplyDelete
faith is such a precious blogger. you live in a lovely placeReplyDelete
Hi Inger - I love seeing your Canyon and your photos and the dogs .. so please don't stop! Your thoughts make a change of thought, which is entertaining and different. I'm always amazed when we get Sahara sand here - that's 4,000 miles I think ... and yes we get smoke from disasters. I'm sorry that you can sense it so easily - but that's a good protective mechanism. Take care and I'm pleased you're able to do some 'little' / easy things that fill your day, but don't stretch the mind too much - lots of other things going on.ReplyDelete
Great to see the post ... and look after yourself - with hugs Hilary
It can be a hassle when the transport doesn't work well. I had to get ours fixed last year while hubs was in hospital. I dislike doing car stuff, but have no alternative. Things could be better with hubs recovery, but I'm struggling through it. Life goes on no matter what. . .ReplyDelete
i would be happy with photos of your scenic views and never get tired of Faith and Samson pics. Samson is gorgeous in the header and Faith is fantastic, two beautiful dogs.. sorry about the jeep trouble again...ReplyDelete
I worry about all of you out there in burning California. It is usually bad this time of year, but the news seems to be even worse this time. Please stay inside when the winds blow the smoke your way.ReplyDelete
I'm so sorry for your loss. Clearly I missed that since I've been away. but I'm still sending you good thoughts, much love and many hugs. As always I'm in awe of your home. It looks so beautiful and peacfull out there!ReplyDelete
There really should be a recall on that problem. It sounds really dangerous. I would write them at least to vent my spleen and maybe get them to look into it. Keep your repair bills just in case.ReplyDelete
Take care with the smoke.
What beautiful photos of the desert. So different from where I live but both places have their beauty.ReplyDelete
I think keeping busy, prayer, and time does wonders.
Your photos, words, and posts are always beautiful and filled with tons of wisdom! Always. Be gentle with yourself, grief is a long process and it is different for all us.ReplyDelete
I was glad to see that your friend said it took her up to two years. As you know, I have just passed the first anniversary. And I still feel awful!! Each of us just needs to take however much time it takes us!! Grief is individualized! Loved your pictures. Be careful with the smoke from the fires!!ReplyDelete
Very good lessen from Faith here, Inger. But what about all the wonderful photos you post?!ReplyDelete
You DO live in a beautiful place!
Just stopping by to say hello and check up on you - take care of yourself!ReplyDelete
We had a wild fire a few years back, burned fast and furious. Praying for you and those firemen.ReplyDelete
It does take time to heal from a loss of a loved one. It seems like you have plenty to keep you busy. Oh that would be scary having your jeep act up like that. Faith seems to be such a comfort and a cutie.ReplyDelete
Good morning dear Inger!ReplyDelete
Love that lovely Faith and Sampson help you with blogging! Both are very good friends!
I am sorry about the smoke from fires.
I hope your jeep will be ok soon.
I enjoy so much, Inger, read your words and seeing your Canyon's photos and the pictures of adorable Samson and Faith.
Wishing you all a nice week.
Hugs and Love!
Photos make me understand people's worlds!!! However your words are what draw us in Inger, so take it from there. I haven't been around much this summer but have more strength now and hopefully will be able to share more of Sophie's world.ReplyDelete
Take care and always remember you teach us things we would never be able to experience.
So sorry about your Jeep Inger, with all the knowledge these big car manufacturers have, I can't understand how they stay in business with all the faulty parts they have in their vehicles, putting people's lives in jeopardy.ReplyDelete
It's hard to get ahead when there's always something that needs fixing, just like on our farm. Getting new equipments now cost about 25 % more because of our low dollar and everything comes from the states.
I sure hope that you will not get fires near your place. I do worry about you. One of my blogger friend lives in Bakersfield. Kim from My Field of Dreams. I hope that the weather is getting a bit cooler too.
Faith looks so grownup now. Such a good companion for you and Samson.
I wish you a great weekend. I'm not sure how mine will be as I'm babysitting my little grandson Daniel in Ottawa, Ontario... all weekend. Daniel can be a challenge at best of time and so sweet at the same time... Wish me good luck.
Sorry you are having trouble with the Jeep. I've driven Jeeps since 1986, usually keep them at least 16 years, and have had good luck. I had a 2007 Wrangler that I really liked, was probably my favorite but I traded it in on a Commander so my wife could drive it. She can't drive a stick.ReplyDelete