Me, alone. Life after loss.
I learn more about God
From weeds than from roses
Resilience springing
Through the smallest chink of hope
In the absolute of concrete ~ Phillip Pulfrey
For many years the seeds of these weeds lay in wait under the dry earth and when the rains came, well, there you are. They cover the ground from my gate, through my field, to the house and then on each side of the house. To the east, they cover where we like to walk and also some of the hills. Some of them are waist-high on me and I'm tall; Faith disappears in them. The tractor guy will take care of it soon. I hope nothing goes wrong with that.
Then there are many tiny ones, like these. They grow in my road. Nothing but sandy dirt.
I admire their resilience.
California poppies now cover the steep sides of Sugarloaf mountain and
pretty blue wildflowers grow everywhere. It has been a gorgeous spring here in the mountains.
Because Mary and I went looking for wildflowers so early, and further down the mountain, it's been such a long and wonderful season. It's hard to believe that we took this trip on February 25.
Those orange flowers are poppies also.
A field below the mountains in early March.
This is the closest I have ever come to pogonip, the ice particles that form on trees at the higher elevations after a dense winter fog. Rachael, Mary and I went to visit the monastery a few weeks ago. It's located at around 5,000 ft, and the picture is of the mountains above. The Swedish word for this, I believe, is Rimfrost. Anyway, I was delighted as I find it both beautiful and fascinating.
To tie this into my life after the loss of Errol: This gorgeous spring, after four dry years, has made me happy to be alive, to be able to experience it all. I have never seen anything like it in the eleven years I have lived here.
The exceptional beauty of this wildflower season makes me forgive the weeds for blooming right along with the prettier versions of themselves.
The tractor man cometh.....
To tie this into my life after the loss of Errol: This gorgeous spring, after four dry years, has made me happy to be alive, to be able to experience it all. I have never seen anything like it in the eleven years I have lived here.
A patch of clover in the nuns' garden.
The tractor man cometh.....
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P.S.
I left replies to many of your comments on yesterday's post. Let me just say here, that I have told several doctors to: "Sit, Stay," in the same tone I use for my dogs. It always works and they do listen to my questions. The endo doctor, kept telling me how intelligent I was so many times that it began to sound like an insult. Mary is now teasing me, so I have to live that down. But the doctor didn't really answer my questions.
Her husband shooed me out of his office with the phone next to his ear and me in shock, so I just left. I will get both of them, don't worry.
Bakersfield is a strange place. It has the worst air in the US, the most obese people, so there are an awful lot of sick people there, many probably not as sophisticated as I, so I'm sure these doctors get very bad habits and just process them.
I have excellent health insurance and don't need any referrals, but UCLA is 107 miles away vs. Bakersfield's 50 miles. A huge difference at my age. Driving a Jeep with a soft top, in the desert winds.
Finally, my eyes are really bad. I can't drive with sunglasses or at night. I can't read street names and signs along the road. I can't read books, magazines, etc. Thanks Amazon for the Kindle Fire! The doctor barely approved me to drive last November, so I must have it done before next November or no more driver's license. I had an appointment, but the heart must come first.
Sorry about this lengthy explanation, but I know you, my long time followers, do care and I wanted to explain. You never ever have to worry about me speaking up and taking care of myself.
Hi Inger so good to know what's happening with your plans for your continued health - which will get better ...
ReplyDeleteWeeds are just plants out of place ... but are essential to the earth you love, and the insects, birds and beasties ... enjoy them - that tractor man cometh - as you say!
Love the photos - and am glad to hear the news ... with many thoughts - that Rim Frost is extraordinary ... I don't think I've heard of it or seen it before - beautiful photo ... take care and cheers Hilary
What beautiful scenery you have. I do love wildflowers and many so called weeds have their beauty and place in our environment. The Rimfrost is stunning and a sight to behold.
ReplyDeleteSpring always brings us hope of new beginnings. You have been through much and grief has no timeline, but I can see you are picking up the pieces of your life and are seeking the joys that life has to offer you.
your photos are amazing. i love the rimfrost, have never seen it or heard of it until ow. the field of orange poppies is amazing to. i think the flowers that come up through the dry dirt are even more beautiful because they jump out at us...
ReplyDeletei am so sorry your eyes are that bad, i had no idea.. that is a long way to go for a doctor... your docs in Bakersfield sound just like the ones here. they have to many to process due to the fact every elderly person in the USA wants to retire here...
First off....your new 'header' is fantastic! And the photos in this post are breath-taking, Inger! Especially that mountainside of Poppies! And the winter frosted trees!! There.....
ReplyDeleteGood to hear that you have everything under control...I wouldn't expect anything less, Inger. One doesn't mess with a Swede!!
Yes, get the heart attended to and then the eyes.
really looks like a 'new beginning' for you with this beautiful spring all around you and the good results of most of your health tests.
Oh, remember, weeds are plants too. lol
Some great photos. I am always in pursuit of weeds to pull them up instead of spray them.
ReplyDeleteYou could be a professional photographer, I swear! And you live in such a beautiful place.
ReplyDeleteI'm going through the vicissitudes of health issues as well. Got me down for a little bit but I've kind of learned to just accept it and not let it make me sour. You seem to be managing the health issues pretty well.
Too bad the tractor man is going to eliminate so many of your pretty wildflowers. I love your views, that guy won't be touching those hues, lol.
ReplyDeleteI don't think I would survive in Bakersfield.
I always say that spring is a time for new beginnings. There is a lot of wild flowers around here as well. I think some of them are really gorgeous. Too bad they are in that category.
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The difference between weeds & flowers: If you grab it & try to pull it out of the ground & you can't, it's a weed--if it comes right out, it WAS an expensive flower!!
ReplyDeleteYour photos are, indeed, amazing. I have never seen Rimfrost in person, but now I would really like to. Doctors are prone to thinking that M.D. stands for Me Deity!
ReplyDeleteHeart first then eyes, and I know you will be assertive, and speak out about your health care, or the lack of it. Sometimes I think we are processed like a herd of cows!!! Orange poppies and frost, beautiful. And weeds, someone once told me they are really only plants growing in the wrong place, and each one has a right to be somewhere, juts not in the flower garden.
ReplyDeleteWow, that pogonip was stunning. I have never seen anything like it. I didn't realize your eyes were so bad so I am glad you will be getting the surgery. People who have had it say it is like night and day. One friend explained by saying that he didn't realize there were leaves on trees. It should really open your world. Also glad you are going to go ahead with the tests. Please let us know how they go.
ReplyDeleteThose trees! Wow, that's an amazing image.
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you are loved dear
ReplyDeleteGood for you Inger, in speaking up. Those doctors often forget they work for us! Not the other way around. Without us, they don't get paid!! I love the mountains with the poppies. Would love to see that in person. Who knows, maybe someday!!
ReplyDeleteGood for you Inger, in speaking up. Those doctors often forget they work for us! Not the other way around. Without us, they don't get paid!! I love the mountains with the poppies. Would love to see that in person. Who knows, maybe someday!!
ReplyDeleteGlad to know that you are speaking up for yourself. Doctors work for us, not the other way around.
ReplyDeletewell... "you are an intelligent woman" so you'll get this figured out :D
ReplyDeleteI had a test two years ago- it measured inflammation of my arteries, something they were concerned about- however they said I had less than 1-5% chance of having a stroke or heart attack in the next ten years! Pretty good odds in my favor :) Hopefully they will give you the results we all want to hear too... so we can enjoy reading your words and see your beautiful photos you always put on here without being able to see them (and for you to be able to get those eyes fixed soon!) Fingers crossed for the Swedish Goddess always!
I hope my comment wasn't pushy or rude yesterday. I wanted to relate my experience. I know you will get what you need. I don't like someone shooing you away when you're in need. I feel protective of you. Today's post is beautiful.
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Janie
such beautiful views and regrowth. and even some lovely fences!
ReplyDeleteI love wildflowers.. these pictures are beautiful, as always. I am so glad to hear you are taking care of your health and I so admire your gumption!! Always love stopping by here for a visit ;-) Gracie says hi Samson and Faith..
ReplyDeleteWildflowers are so welcome in the Spring and after a rain. And it's fun to see the unusual flower pop up. I'm glad you wrote something about the way you handle things. You are a strong lady and a smart one too! I'm glad we're friends. Hugs, Diane
ReplyDeleteFor your other post: You do ask for copies of your blood works. EKGs, etc. It makes it easy to carry from one doctor to another and it gives you a chance to compare. Hope you get your health issues taken care of.
ReplyDeleteVery beautiful views, Inger!
ReplyDeleteLove California poppies and so pretty these blue wildflowers!
You live in a gorgeous place!
Many hugs!
I agree. It seems like my canyon, where I walk with my dog, has not been this green or beautiful in many years. Maybe it's a salute to Errol. It's certainly a salute to the circle of life and the resilience of us all!
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